The I-Wonder-What-He-Is-Doing days. It wasn't, by any means, a fairy tale relationship, and as it neared the end, the bad turned to worse. But still, even after our time apart, I miss him.

"It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone then you try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn when you try to see the world beyond your front door..."

I have some new prose that I can't wait to share with you. I hope you enjoy it. I hope to be back on here a lot more often. So to all my friends who read this, I'll be seeing you around.

I have returned, unofficially of course... but I will be on here way more often.

So some updates on life:

My mom and I are out of my dad's house.
I got rid of my slow computer and bought a new one.
I have a whole journal full of fresh words.

Best wishes to you all, Tranquility and Love to those of you who read this.

Long time no see, so to speak. I've missed you all dearly. I've been relatively drained and haven't had much time to do anything, let alone write. I think I will be posting a couple non-fiction pieces later, as per request of my AP English teacher, friend, and confidant. She suggested that some of the things I've been through recently would be a good warning for those of you in abusive relationships... so be on the look out!

You're my survival you're my living proof my love is alive and not dead"

I have definately missed writing lately, almost as much as I have missed all of you. So if you're here, drop me a line, because I definately adore you!

I can't do the talk like they talk on the TV And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you I can't do anything except be in love you

Sorry guy's it's been a rough couple of weeks and I'm tired.

And I dreamed your dream for you and now your dream is real.

Well in case you are actually following the whole Drill Team news and stuff like that, we made it into the Western Regional Championship. That means that we are going to Texas in March. IF we can raise the money.

When you can fall for chains of silver you can fall for chains of gold You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold You promised me everything you promised me thick and thin.

I wanted to wish you all Happy Holidays, and make sure that you be safe. Friends don't let friends drink and drive. It's cliche I know, but still... be safe.

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be

I love you all very very much!

What The __________ (insert favorite four letter word here)

"New blood joins this earth and quickly he's subdued, through constant pain and disgrace the young boy learns their rules..."

WARNING YOU ARE ENTERING A RANT ZONE

One of my biggest petpeeves is people saying things they shouldn't, in places that they shouldn't, around people that they shouldn't. I think you get the picture. So when someone starts spreading lies around 12 complete strangers from all over Southern Missouri about me, I tend to get a bit pissed off.

But you know what? I surrender If the person that this is dedicated reads ths portion than this is for you ! I just don't give a fuck anymore. And by the way, if you don't know anything about this and are completley lost, good.

LEAVING RANT ZONE

In other news: The Ozark High School Drill Team went to Branson, Missouri and took first place over-all out of like ten teams I think, so congrats to us... !
We go to Marshfield, Missouri on Saturday December 3rd to compete again. Wish us luck!

"Another knife in my hands, a stain that never comes off the sheets. Clean me off, I'm so dirty babe. The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes. I keep a book of the names and those only goes so far 'til you bury them. So deep and down we go ouched by angels, though I fall out of grace I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day"